By 8a.m. it had already been one of those days....

I woke up frantic and anxious this morning. I was late, had no clean clothes, and my hair was doing something really strange. Maybe it is the bizzarro weather the south is experiencing. I mean it is June and I should be bitching about how unbearably hot it is and how I take a shower and start sweating before I even leave the house but instead I have on a jacket IN THE SOUTH IN JUNE. It's no wonder I have felt just a little off lately. I don't think I am sleeping well and when I do sleep I have insane dreams. For example, last night I dreamt that I was running through a mall in a see of people looking for the hospital in which I was slated to have knee surgery. Apparently, Macy's had a hospital department and I was frantically trying to find it. In addition, I had the flu. Upon finding the "hospital" I was told that I could not have my surgery because I was sick. It would have to wait. Then I woke up.

I just can't seem to relax anymore. You would probably suggest the following to aid in relaxation (in no particular order):

1) exercise...check and double check. Some how on my lack of sleep I am able to cram in a good bit of exercise. I have another triathlon at the end of the month so there is no time to slack off.

2) watch movies...yep. been doing a lot of that but the most recent (The Manchurian Candidate...yuck) made me so crazy I made the boy turn it off before it finished. Not relaxing in the least. So I have moved on to Sex and the City: Season 1 but that sort of stresses me out because I look at all the great shoes and clothes and worry about money.

3) hang out with friends...I do a bit of that but the schedules are so hectic we rarely cross paths.

4) drink....every night I have a glass of wine with dinner and then stress out about "drinking too much," "not getting to bed early enough," "red wine teeth," etc.

So what it boils down to is I am wound up tighter than a clock and it is manifesting itself in a lack of sleep. I agree. I worry about some stupid shit but that's me. I am a worrier. Even when I have nothing in my life to stress me out (i.e. I have a great boy, a great dog, good job, functioning car, great group of friends, great health, great parents) I find menial things and I stress. This is not a pity party for sure. All in all I am really happy but just a little tired and tense. I need a diversion. You know something like cow tipping or roller skating.